I'm a big believer in sharing stories of the past, not because it still lies in me for deeper healing, and not because I'm here to create a reaction from you, but to give you an opportunity to feel into your own stories as to why you have the vision you do, why you're here on this earth celebrating the challenges, hardships, and heartaches that you might've had before, and how you have alchemized them into gold wisdom.
May I share a little story? A tale about my mother, my younger sister, and my vow to save all sisters around the world.
My mother was about 16 when she developed a heart condition, which started when both of her parents passed away. She was literally and physically heartbroken.
Her gorgeous, divine heart works incredibly hard to pump blood and her valve doesn’t work properly. Currently she is in constant pain, has had two open heart surgeries, and made a potent vow to serve the needs of others ahead of herself.
This vow runs deep and I believe when I was born, she confirmed this devotional act and made a choice to always ensure her children come first while her desires and needs would come last.
Two years after I was born, and after her first open-heart surgery, she realized she was pregnant. All of her doctors advised it wasn't a good idea to continue with the pregnancy because they weren’t sure she would physically be able to handle it.
Who knows if that would be true or not nowadays, but back then, she was a woman who had just immigrated and didn't know the language. This woman was, and is, fearless in many areas of her life, except where it comes to herself and her health.
She had to make a decision.
Does she continue with the growth of this child knowing that she may not survive the pregnancy or does she choose herself first? Choose herself knowing that by making this decision, she would live and be there for those she loved, like myself and her husband (my father)?
She made the choice to live. And it was an excruciating decision.
Though I was very small and I didn't necessarily know, mentally, what was going on, emotionally and energetically, I knew.
The time came for me to make a vow.
With so much sadness, I spoke to my sister and said, "I'm so sorry I can't be here to save you. Momma comes first and so, therefore, my vow growing up and always is that I will save all sisters around the world in honor of you."
We usually don't realize the vows we've made until we are on this path of self-healing and taking responsible for understanding ourselves and our stories.
Fast forward 35 years later, I was sitting in ceremony with a wise, ancient plant teacher in Costa Rica, surrounded by dear sisters I had been journeying with for 2 years.
La Madre showed me the connections to that moment - to that sacred vow. She revealed to me that, though my sister was not here in physical form, I took her energy and placed her on the back of my shoulder, right behind my heart space.
I could feel her and see her, and I didn't want to let her go, and yet, I knew it didn't serve either one of us to keep her there.
What happened was pure MAGIC.
The Shaman, who knows nothing of my mom or this story, comes over to me while in ceremony, bends down and she whispers in my ear, "Dear sister, you have an embryonic essence and energy that's stored behind your heart in your shoulder blade. I believe it's an embryo or something of the sort that was from your mother that was passed on to you. And I believe it's time for you to let her go. Are you ready to do this?"
She performed a clearing and I could see and feel the release of my sister. While this was occurring I saw four large angel wings that spanned across the room, two angels side-by-side covering me and holding me.
It was the most beautiful experience.
Afterwards, as I integrated, I began to understand the commitment I made to the Universe that I was going to save all sisters.
Why is this important?
I realized I was trying to save all sisters instead of holding space and watching sisters really rise up to the occasion to heal themselves. I was leading with the energy of rescuing. And what my sisters really needed where for me to see them in their highest light, and say, “You’ve got this.”
It is no wonder why I do the work I do, as a healer, as a business coach, and as a cosmic warrior priestess.
I do this in honor of women around the world because I'm a big believer in sisterhood. And now, it's because of the sister I don't have here in physical form, who gifted me this sense and awareness as to why I am here.
So, my dear lovely ladies, begin to tap into your own story.
What are some things occurring within you that may have happened in the past that actually is the reason why you're doing what you're doing now?
Is there a way to reframe and rewrite some of those stories and vows to help you stand more confidently, more grounded, and more empowered in the work you do?
I'd love to hear your own story that you're working through, or that you have worked through that you share with your tribe. Head over to the Sacred Circle community to tell your story.